Forgiving My Past

Apparently it still hurts my feeling everytime theres something turns me back to the past where i dont want to belong anymore. 

Knowing how people were only around in your good times and started to disappear themselves at your worst.

 They can talk so much about you and your mistakes yet they dont give a fuck to listen nor to understand.

 Life is simply easy until people are making it otherwise. 

At the end of the day, i've finally reached the point where people are people and some of them are not meant to be forever in your life. 

I'm all grown and the cruelties taught me that some people will be there to stand for you and the rest will be there just because to satisfy their curiosity about you.

 Remembering how i've struggled thru everything alone, 

the bitterest tears shed over wrong people i wish i didnt meet, 

a sacredness in tears i used to flow on my cheeks, 

they... spoke more eloquently than thousands tongues ever. 

They were like the messenggers of overwhelming, deep emotions, but who was there anyway?

 I comforted me and i knew i would become a bigger person after-- i hope.

I am forgiving the pains & suffers they caused, learning to be a big-hearted growing woman-- as my Dad has always wished me to be. 

Just so i can get a complete move on with my life, along with the desires & goals im still focused on. I understood as often as i meet people, its the right time for me to learn their true face they wear and the masks they try to pretend.

Im not going to blame anyone, instead im fixing myself.

I am moving on, dont ask me why im forgiving. #curhat #lagimellow